It’s true Lord, things are not okay until you return.
Until the Lord of glory, fully God, fully man steps foot on this earth again things will never be right. Bodies will still be sick, hearts will still be broken. Souls will still be tormented, women will still be abused. Babies will still be aborted, the poor will still be ignored. Children will still be forgotten, the earth will still groan. I will still have a gaping hole in my heart for the rest of my existence, until righteousness is established and I function the way that I was designed to. It is easy, in our zeal, to believe that we actually long for the return of Jesus more than He longs to come back, but that is not so. I really do have hope. He really is coming for me. Lord, hasten the day when my faith shall be sight.
I have more decisions to make right now than I feel like I have ever had to make in my life. It’s terrifying, and honestly, really frustrating. If you know me you know that I have a very conflicted soul, a very emotional heart. I am always thinking, always feeling, always questioning. Yeah yeah, just like the rest of humanity.
If He doesn’t come for me then surely I have no hope.
If He does not uphold me then surely I will go down to the pit.
I was meditating/crying/screaming these verses to the Lord in the prayer room this morning.
Psalm 18:16
“He sent from on high, He took me; He drew me out of many waters.”
Psalm 18:18
“They confronted me in the day of my calamity, but the Lord was my support.”
Psalm 18:28
“For it is you who light my lamp, the Lord my God lightens my darkness.”
Psalm 18:36
“YOU GAVE A WIDE PLACE for steps under me, but my feet did not slip.”
Whatever the details of tomorrow look like and whatever my service before His friends unfolds to be, He is for me. And because He is for me, I am succsessful!
